OMG it's April!

So, it's APRIL!! and I haven't blogged or made any sort of effort towards my diet since my last post.  Again, always the best of intentions, VERY LITTLE follow through.

I'm making a real effort now.  Gave myself a goal 60lbs in 60 days.  Can I do it?? I guess we'll find out.  Going to be posting my weight and measurements and update that once per week.

Yesterday started off with a bang.  I actually remembered to bring food yesterday.  I'm hypoglycemic and that means that if I don't eat when/what I should, I have a bad reaction and then will fall back on junk food to bring my sugar back up to par.  So, where I normally consume around 2000+ calories for the day prior to even leaving work, yesterday I consumed a grand total of 1150. 

I'm not starving myself though, I literally ate all day yesterday.  I was full all day.  I didn't have a single sugar crash and I only consumed 3/4 of a dr. pepper.  So far today, 635 calories and it's 1pm.  If I stay on track I will still consume less than 1200 calories today.  I am basically cutting my intake in half, and upping my water consumption

Dr. Pepper is a big deal for me, it's seriously like my personal crack or something.  I drink 3 or 4 per day, breakfast, lunch and dinner and maybe another if we are out running errands or something.  Cutting that alone is saving me tons of calories.

Anyway, I'll get better about putting pen to paper so to speak and figuring out how to make this work, because frankly I'm uncomfortable in my own skin.

Weekend

So, I had the best of intentions (as always) of starting my great and wonderful plan over the weekend.

A - Never start your plan on a weekend, it's impossible
B - Kids make it impossible
C - I will look for any excuse not to start apparently

We ate junk all weekend.  McDonalds, Whataburger, Taco Bell... and too many large Dr. Peppers

So, here we are at Monday..

I hate Monday!  I'm a hair away from biting someone's head off because I have not had my caffeine fix yet this morning.

My typical morning consists of either ... a pastry of some sort with a 20 oz Dr. Pepper OR something like McDonalds sausage biscuit and hashbrown with a large Dr. Pepper OR Whataburger potato and egg taquitos and a med Dr Pepper which is the same size as a large everywhere else.  Notice how that Dr. Pepper is always in there?

So, my first change HAS to be the soda.  I'm consuming approx 1000 calories a day JUST in soda... that's so not good.  Bad for all your body parts and esp bad for women's bones.

I ate oatmeal for breakfast with a bottle of water.  There has to be a way to make this more appealing.  But I'm really going to try and stick with it.  I'm spending a fortune every week on junk.  Sodas, snacks, lunches out.  Almost $130/week on these things, in addition to what I spend for groceries at the house that we never really take advantage of because in all reality I detest cooking :(  But I need to be better.  I WILL be better!

Desperate need of a diet

Why am I putting this out on the net?  Because then hopefully I will actually start and stick to the diet changes I desperately need.  


I have put on almost 70lbs in the last two years.  Now weighing almost 190 and at 5'4" let me tell you, it ain't pretty!


Here comes the story behind it: 


I used to take really good care of myself, but I had an accident that put me out of commission for strength training for almost a year (techncally 2).  Then came the stress...


I separated from my husband, moved to Houston (without a job) with my kids and started a life here.  He (my ex) treats my kids terribly, very controlling and can't seem to stop bashing me to them.


After 3 jobs in 4 years I've discovered I've got a terrible track record for jobs in addition to the one with men.  I don't think I seek out the trouble, but it seems to invariably find me.  Job #1 - drunken bosses with a penchant for criminal activity.  Job #2 I trained my own replacement (yay me!) Job #3 is where i'm currently working... let me tell you, if I didn't have kids and bills or the economy was better I'd be so out of there.  This job takes the cake, I've worked in some insane places before, but I could combine every one of those and it would still not equal this one.


ANYWAY...


Stress is definitely a contributing factor to my weight gain.  While I know what is causing it and I even know how to fix it, I can't seem to find the motivation to get off my butt and do it.  Why? I'm not lazy, have a desire... yet, there it is.  No motivation.


So now, I'm hoping to motivate myself with this blog and a plan.


Important part of the plan - appropriate diet...


I'm using www.bodyforlife.com - Reasons: 


1) it worked before REALLY well.  Lost 25lbs in 3 months, gained a little muscle and toned up.  Went from an 11 in juniors to a 3.


2) it's cheap and doesn't require any supplements, etc. to work.


3) NO special foods required - only have to remember to have a protein and carb at every meal and add a green veggie to 2 of the meals.


4) OH, and I get a free day once a week to eat all the crap I can't eat the rest of the week.  What I found last time was that eventually by the time free day rolled around I didn't want that junk anyway.


Drawbacks are that I don't eat alot anyway, but now I have to not eat alot at least 5 times a day.  At least 10 glasses of water AND I have to actually make an effort to workout 6 times a week.


I'm not brave enough yet to post a before pic, but maybe one day.


I hope you'll come along on this journey with me as I strive to reach my best self, not just in weight but also in figuring out a way to be my most positive and content self.