Desperate need of a diet

Why am I putting this out on the net?  Because then hopefully I will actually start and stick to the diet changes I desperately need.  


I have put on almost 70lbs in the last two years.  Now weighing almost 190 and at 5'4" let me tell you, it ain't pretty!


Here comes the story behind it: 


I used to take really good care of myself, but I had an accident that put me out of commission for strength training for almost a year (techncally 2).  Then came the stress...


I separated from my husband, moved to Houston (without a job) with my kids and started a life here.  He (my ex) treats my kids terribly, very controlling and can't seem to stop bashing me to them.


After 3 jobs in 4 years I've discovered I've got a terrible track record for jobs in addition to the one with men.  I don't think I seek out the trouble, but it seems to invariably find me.  Job #1 - drunken bosses with a penchant for criminal activity.  Job #2 I trained my own replacement (yay me!) Job #3 is where i'm currently working... let me tell you, if I didn't have kids and bills or the economy was better I'd be so out of there.  This job takes the cake, I've worked in some insane places before, but I could combine every one of those and it would still not equal this one.


ANYWAY...


Stress is definitely a contributing factor to my weight gain.  While I know what is causing it and I even know how to fix it, I can't seem to find the motivation to get off my butt and do it.  Why? I'm not lazy, have a desire... yet, there it is.  No motivation.


So now, I'm hoping to motivate myself with this blog and a plan.


Important part of the plan - appropriate diet...


I'm using www.bodyforlife.com - Reasons: 


1) it worked before REALLY well.  Lost 25lbs in 3 months, gained a little muscle and toned up.  Went from an 11 in juniors to a 3.


2) it's cheap and doesn't require any supplements, etc. to work.


3) NO special foods required - only have to remember to have a protein and carb at every meal and add a green veggie to 2 of the meals.


4) OH, and I get a free day once a week to eat all the crap I can't eat the rest of the week.  What I found last time was that eventually by the time free day rolled around I didn't want that junk anyway.


Drawbacks are that I don't eat alot anyway, but now I have to not eat alot at least 5 times a day.  At least 10 glasses of water AND I have to actually make an effort to workout 6 times a week.


I'm not brave enough yet to post a before pic, but maybe one day.


I hope you'll come along on this journey with me as I strive to reach my best self, not just in weight but also in figuring out a way to be my most positive and content self.